I just wanted to sit at my laptop and write for a moment, about nothing really in particular, just my life. It’s kind of long, but I hope you enjoy.
I was born on December 23, 1998 in Washington state.
I lived there for 7 years and during that time I don’t remember much. I remember going to preschool and also sitting at my plastic desk doing school work for homeschool because I was homeschooled for kindergarten and first grade. Also, I remember dressing up in animal onesies with my friend Sean Holland and play animals around his house. And I remember going to second grade with my two best friends Sean and Brianna P where we played in the rocks and hid underneath tires.
In the middle of my first year at public school, second grade, we moved to California where I remember most of my childhood.
I met so many amazing people, for example Danielle H, Brianna L, Shaiann, Kirstin L, and so so SO many more. I remember countless times when we would run around and swing at the red white and blue park, and there was the yellow park down the street, and I remember 7th grade walking to school was the most fun time of the entire day. I remember hanging out at the BX or walking down the street to the shopette just for something to do. I remember eating bagels with butter and pepperoni for a snack and I don’t know why but it was the most delicious thing in the entire world. Leaving California was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but it has definitely proved itself worth it. I am going to go a little more in depth with 7th grade though because that was definitely an eventful year.
I decided to do competitive cheer in 7th grade and I had an amazing time. I was balancing 7th grade, cheer, and student council all at the same time. Also, I had my first “boyfriend” and his name was Nick F. Pretty cool guy, and he added me on snapchat a few months ago and I thought it was such a crazy thing that he found me. Anyways, I was very very busy and that made the year fly by a little faster than I wanted.
Once making it to Las Vegas, it was the beginning of summer so I didn’t have any friends yet. I spent the entire summer skyping my friend Danielle and honestly just playing video games all afternoon. It wasn’t the best experience but it was something to do.
I feel as though I hyped 8th grade up a little too much because when I arrived it was so much harder to make friends than I had imagined. I met up with a girl called Selena who was from southern California and she had just moved there too. We didn’t have much else in common, but at least we had that. We also were in the same homeroom together so it made life a little less stressful to face this new school with someone. Then in PE, I met 2 more people, Cayenne and Christina. They were super nice to me and I was super excited that I had made 3 friends already and my first day wasn’t over. THEN I had my history class, where I met my soon to be best friend Lacy F. I’m not going to go into detail on how we met but let’s just say, it’s funny.
A few weeks into school and I had met 2 more people, Lacey A and Zach C. Selena and I stopped being friends after one lunch I received a text saying we weren’t friends anymore, which is fine. I had Lacey and Zach. We hung out at lunch every single day for about 2-3 weeks and it was super duper fun. One day, Lacy asked me to sit with her and her friends at lunch and I said sure. We talked and I met a few more people such as Kaitlyn and I was super happy to get along with these people. Little did I know, Lacey and Lacy weren’t friends and soon enough Lacey told me to choose between them and well, I chose Lacy. Thank goodness I did. The first time Lacy and I ever hung out after school was at a carnival and then we had our very first sleepover right after. We were fast friends.
High school came and Lacy was practically my only friend. We had the same lunch on A days and B days, so we were always together. One day, Lacy and I had a small falling out and we stopped being friends. It wasn’t like we fought or anything, we had just stopped talking really. Now, I was all alone. I ate lunch in the theatre on B days because, well, that was the only place I didn’t feel weird eating alone. I met a kid named Josh, who was a senior and I thought I was the coolest kid on the block for hanging out with him. Josh, Miranda C and I started eating lunch together EVERY B day. I never asked for his social media or to take a picture or anything like that because I was afraid that if I did we would stop being friends. After all, I was only a freshman and he was a SENIOR.
Winter break came rolling around and I came downstairs the day before my birthday. My mom had this look on her face like she had bad news. I asked what was wrong and she had told me that Josh had committed suicide the night before. That was the hardest thing to hear when, at the time, he was really my only friend. I just said, “oh, okay. that’s so sad.” and then moved along with my day. I guess I’ve always put up a front when bad things happen. Miranda and I continued to eat lunch together and talk because, well, we still had one thing in common. Josh.
Sophomore year I decided to quit doing competitive cheer and join school cheer. To be honest, I hated it. But one good thing did come out of it and that was my friend Miranda R. We are still friends to this day but tbh I haven’t heard from really any of the other girls I cheered with since then. During this time I decided I was going to make this girl Piper talk to me. I was completely successful and we became fast friends. Piper was 100% my bestest friend throughout this entire year and still is a good friend today. Right towards the end of the year, Lacy and I linked back up and were back to being great friends. Over summer, Lacy and I took a trip to Reno and it was super fun. We didn’t do much but we met some super nice people and hung around the arcade a LOT.
Junior year I decided to quit cheer completely and devote my year to theatre. BEST DECISION I HAD EVER MADE!!!!! Theatre became my life and if you needed me, I was there. I participated in every single show that year. Lip Sync- Hobo group, BGB- Ensemble, Make a Wish- A Friend Like ME (Victor, MJ, Savannah, and I), A Midsummer’s Nights Dream- Peasant with MJ, Shrek the Musical- Assistant Stage Manager/Duloc Doll. I was busy all year long but I was so happy with myself. During this time I also had my first real boyfriend Dayton and learned so much about myself.
Senior year. Wow. It definitely flew by faster than everyone warned it would. I can’t even express how fast it flew genuinely. I was still very involved in theatre, but I stage managed so much more throughout the year. Lip Sync- Hit the Quan, BGB- Newsies, Fall Dance Show- Stage Manager, Harvey- Stage Manager and Grand, Spring Dance Show- Stage Manager, Beauty and the Beast- Stage Manager. So, you could say that I really enjoyed stage managing. Throughout the year I can definitely say I made some friendships I never want to give up. I also got so much closer to people I already knew. Some people I want to shout out is Brendan, Griffin, Ambur, Bret, Bella, Brad, Kacie… genuinely thankful for these people and the friendships I have with them. Bonds, that I think, can’t be broken. Also, I went to New York with my theatre and created another bond with someone – Rachael. This girl and I have some of the best conversations and honestly can’t thank her enough for being my rock. ALSO – SHOUTOUT TO ASHLEY MY BEST FRIEND 🙂 She lived at my house practically over the summer, and I couldn’t ask for a nicer person in my life.
No matter what happened throughout the year, I am so thankful for everyone who is in my life. It’s crazy to think that I have been friends with Danielle since 2nd grade and I am a freshman in COLLEGE. That’s about 11 YEARS of friendship. Absolutely insane. Also, I’ve been friends with Brianna for just about the same amount of time and she just visited about a year ago? Maybe a year and a half?
I believe that you make an effort to keep the people in your life that you care the most about.
College. I haven’t really done much as far as college goes yet. I went to a football game where a drunk guy almost puked on me, I went to a frat party, and I did genuinely terrible as far as grades in my first semester. But one good thing came out of it and that’s “my only friend from college” Hanna. She’s such a little bundle of sunshine and has been my best friend this past semester. Unfortunately, she will no longer be attending UNLV with me but that will never change the memories or even change the fact that she is one of my best friends. I can definitely say I hung out with her EVERY SINGLE DAY of the semester and I never got bored of her. I don’t quite know what I am going to do without her but I will have to survive. She definitely taught me a little about myself and how it’s totally NOT weird to drive to California with someone one week after you meet them if you really think that they are going to be your good friend. Because I did that, and we became the best of friends. We’ve had so many good memories and I am thankful to say we don’t have a single bad one. I’m glad to call her my friend.
The future. This next year I have so much planned. I have my next semester of college, I am starting a second job, and I am going to Europe with Rachael and my family. I am so excited to see what this year has in store for me. Thank you, to all of my friends and family for supporting me in my life. I’m ready to see what’s next.